Friday, February 17, 2012

Wow February is almost over! And today is Friday which means tomorrow I am free once again to rest and not have many responsibilities. I'm honestly very excited.
Working here I defiantly feel I am where God wants me at this time in my life. Its super exciting to be working and being used for His Glory. I'm really lovin it, lovin the kids (their good and bad attitudes), lovin the learning, and just lovin life. God is good! Working here at the ranch is not always easy. For sure I have days I just need to be alone and some days I just want to scream or cry. But really being here or even being on this earth... its not about me and what I can do here. Its about Jesus and how stinkin awesome He is. Its about all that He has done for me and all that He is teaching me and how I can share that.

" I am the Risen One who shines upon you always. You worship a living Deity, not some idolatrous, man-made image. You relationship with Me is meant to be vibrant and challenging, as I invade more and more areas of your life. Do not fear change, for I am making you a new creation, with old things passing away and new things continually on the horizon. When you cling to old ways and sameness, you resist My work within you. I want you to embrace all that I am doing in your life, finding security in Me alone.
    It is easy to make an idol of routine, finding security within the boundaries you build around your life. Although each day contains twenty-four hours, every single one presents a unique set of circumstances. Don't try to force-fit today into yesterday's mold. Instead, ask Me to open your eyes, so you can find all I have prepared for you in this precious day of Life."
  Matthew 28:5-7; 2 Corinthians 5:17

Thursday, February 9, 2012

walk by the spirit

Galatians 5:16
But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not carry out the desire of the flesh.

Tuesday February 7, 2012
Today Ive been meditating on this verse, i feel like God wants me to know this and rest in this. Today I felt exhausted and my flesh was impatient and not very loving to my students. There is no excuse... tired or not im here to serve God and to do that i need to love which means having patience. But it hit me while teaching in class today. Do you ever feel like you need to scream, just to let it out? I wasn't angry, sad, or mad at anyone i just felt like i needed to do something. So i put on my worship music and started to pray while the kids worked. Then one boy stood up( Emiliano who is obsessed with New York and the Statue of Liberty) and did his impression of the statue of liberty and then i stood up and started with him. Then we both broke out in dancing to the music. Then the other kids saw and stood up and started to dance with us. By the way some of the kids can hear a little and others are totally deaf, either way it doesn't stop them from spontaneous dance parties. I think that's what was needed at that moment.

February 9, 2012
Oh boy yesterday and today were interesting days in school. I think God is for sure teaching me patience and that His timing is perfect not mine! Recently Ive been having trouble with one of my students. His mom is dying and he doesn't know how bad she is but he knows shes sick. Last Wednesday he went home for a few days to be with her and his family. And now he has been back here at the ranch since Monday. Ive been having a hard time with him. I know he is sad and doesn't want to be here, that is obvious. He already had a temper and was stubborn now he just doesn't want to do anything. So please be praying for him and for me to be able to have patience and be loving to him but also to be firm with him and not let him walk all over the me or the other students.  I am giving all these concerns up to God I know he is in control He is our Strength and Song.